The videos of myself each time reflecting on myself are very unimportant or at least they were meat to be , but now I'm not sure. Watching them back each time and then reflecting on it is addictive, it is intense self analysis but only very on the surface. Each time I am getting more and more frustrated and more and more self aware but at the same time this is making me much less self aware! However it is a way of sort of interacting with myself with directly trying to converse with a pre-recorded version of myself, which I did in the crit ( although I would like to come back to this). Its funny as it reminds me of the bit in waiting for godot where one character is restrained for thinking out loud, his thoughts getting ahead of him, although when I was recording it to camera it felt much more frantic and oddly watching it back it was a lot slower, which is usually the opposite of what happens for me, I am often speaking much faster than I think I am. is this something to do with being filmed by myself, so talking to myself... Should I film myself once again talking to myself on a screen reflecting on it as its happening???
I just need to do it and stop saying ill do it. ahrigidjogogfopd LOL shutpu
I also find it funny that in it I am aware of the fact that I am questioning the things I am doing and making fun of the fact that I could be someone on youtube who peole laugh at...
No comments:
Post a Comment